Ignored

I feel so ignored and lonely, like I have no one to talk to. I don't know what to do because nothing seems to help, my life has no point. I'm useless, I'm a waste, I take up space but seem to go unnoticed. If I killed myself I don't think anyone would notice, no one would care. My boyfriend won't even talk to me! He's the one I care about the most, he's the one I live for. If it wasn't for him I'm not sure I would be here right now. He won't talk to me, no one will talk to me. I want to feel better, but nothing helps. I don't want medicine to make me feel like I want to, I want to feel it all on my own.
Everything's going bad, my grades suck and even with doing everything to bring them up nothing helps. My world is slowly spinning out of control, I'm slipping a little more everyday. Suicide seems like the only answer; take drugs and drink, hang myself, shoot myself. Anything would be better than the life I'm living now. I would do whatever it takes for people to care, to be noticed. To have my boyfriend pay just a little more attention to me, to know that he cares, to know that he loves me. To know that he loves me the way that I love him, to be there for me now, when I need him, when I need someone.
Someone please help me. Let me know there is someone out there that cares about me. Tell me what to do to get over the way I feel, to get back in a place in my life that I can trust someone. That I know nothing bad will happen to me. I need to know that everything is going to be ok, I need to know that. I need to be ok.