If I left...

If I killed myself, if I left tomorrow, would anyone care? I feel like I'm slipping into this unknown world, everything is spinning around me at a speed unknown to man. I want to escape but don't know how. I want to get away but don't know where to go. I feel like cutting myself isn't going to do anything, not this time, it's too deep. I can't talk to you, you wouldn't understand, no one would understand. No one cares, no one knows and no one cares. Things I want in my life aren't happening fast enough, I have chances to accomplish what I want, but don't. I can't do it alone, I have no one to do it with, what is happening to me? I'm not crazy, it's just no one understands. I need a shoulder to cry on, will Lukas be there? I need to escape, can Kae and Palumbo help? I need to have fun, would Ian be able to fulfill my need for happiness?
If I killed myself tomorrow, no one would notice. No one would care and they would go on with the pety activities in their lives. Would anyone stop and think, where's Jessica? No, that would be too much to ask for, to much for them to believe that something was wrong. Something that they didn't see, something no one could help with. It's coke that I need, coke and weed will solve everything. Hard core drugs will solve everything, in time everything will be ok once again.