stuck...

Went to Mike's for a party last night. Drinking, hot tub, you know.. the usual. It was really cool. It started snowing sometime after 5 this morning and there's already like 5 inches! It sucks cause i was trying to go home but Eddie can't get his car out, so I'm stuck here till Dad gets off work and comes to pick me up.

Tonsil surgery is tomorrow! I'm excited that I will finally have no more problems with them, but at the same time I'm really scared. For anyone who reads these things, you already know this. My cousin couldn't make it down, so she said she would come down sometime next month to make it up to me. That I'm excited for.

Livi's coming home!!!

So Livia left me a comment on my myspace page yesterday that said she was coming home today! I'm so excited! I missed her so much. We are going to spend so much time together and catch up on so many things. She better have lots of pictures to show me from her trip.

I'm so excited!! Can you tell?

Lunch with Lukas

Lukas and I are finally hanging out, for the first time in what seems like forever. It's been so long, I can't even remember when we hung out last. I can't wait, I'm so excited... There's so much that we need to catch up on. I need to vent, and I know he will be there to listen.

Chris and I were talking last night, and apparently he knows about that "thing" that I never tell anyone. He said he figured it out from one of my surveys I did and he'd known for months. My question is how? The only bulliten I remember posting that had anything to do with it was at the beginning of this month, I don't remember the other one. At least the good thing is that he's not going to disappear because of it. That was always my biggest fear... That someone would find out about it and not want to be around me because they didn't support the decision I had made or for some other unknown reason. I really appreciate that, and it means a lot to me.

I need to talk to Michelle too. She knows more about what I need to talk to Lukas about than most anyone does. I love talking to them, we laugh and make jokes about everything, so if I'm having a rough time with anything then we can get through it together. Speaking of which, I need to go get ready to have lunch with Lukas...

Later than expected

For the past two weeks Livia has been in California and Arizona with her dad - part of her graduation present. I was asked to go with her, but couldn't afford it. I've missed her so much, and I have so much to tell her when she comes home! Nothing exciting really, just the stuff that Livi and I usually talk about.

She was due to come home today. Then we were going to spend the entire day together Sunday, nothing but stupid ideas and crazy talk. Due to an unfortunate event, she fractured her tailbone and won't be home till next week sometime. It kinda ruined my weekend, not really cause I still have plans, but it sucks that she's not coming home.

Livia's the one who promised to go with me to my surgery, if she doesn't make it home by then I have no main source of comfort and stability. Nothing will keep me from freaking out while I'm in the hospital. Then, Michelle said she would go with me, but it's a school day for her... Don't really think it's possible. No one else can really go, Dad works and I don't think Mom would be able to get up that early, so I'm kinda relying on my friends.

Well, I hope Livia recovers quickly and gets home. We have a lot to catch up on.

I'm having surgery!

So I found out like a week ago that I have to have my tonsils taking out. At first I was like, ok this is going to be a piece of cake. Then they started telling my about what was going to happen and what I should expect - I started getting scared. It's now a week and a half until my surgery and I can't stop thinking about it.
I've talked to Audrey, who had her adenoid's removed. She said it hurt like hell but it was all worth it. She didn't get sick from the anestesia or anything, she was just groggy and her throat hurt. I'm hoping that's what I will be like. The thing I'm really scared about is not waking up from the anestesia. I know it's a one in a million thing, but this is the first thing I'm having done where they put me under.
I'm making sure that the next post I write is after my surgery, so even I know I'm ok. :)

For anyone who reads this and cares, please wish me luck.